6 days in, & I've realized my house is still strewn with toys, & clothes, & crumbs, & stacks of papers here & there. I see it, get overwhelmed & then have to put my blinders on, cause apparently my new year excitement hasn't rubbed off on my desire to clean my husband's bathroom & my son's room yet! My on fire sense of excitement over creating new things has waned a little bit too, & given way to the old narrative that plays in my head about needing to find a purpose, & wondering if I'm wasting my life.
Maybe someone should've bought herself some happy pills this year, thats what I'm thinking :)
I expect this year ahead will have it's ups & downs like any other. I was kind of joking before, but there is a little part of me that was hoping my personality would miraculously change, & I would love cleaning my house. Also, that suddenly I'd get my shit together, so to speak, & head on a clear path towards whatever it is that will fulfill me. That would be too easy, right?
So here's to all of us on the journey, navigating through life, winging it a lot of times & figuring it out as we go. May this year be filled with many adventures.... hope you have an awesome year ahead of you!
|New Years's Eve with friends|
|Pretty New Year's Day Hike|