Soooooo, I ended up getting hired for a position that I actually wanted, in a class with kids that need extra help in their subjects. I thought the job was gone, because after I had gone through the testing, the finger printing process, etc. to get the job, the the listing wasn't there anymore. Anyway, long story short is that it all worked out, & I've now been working for 2 weeks.
Crazy part here, oh the irony...I have 3 different sessions in each day of helping kids with Math. Something never in a million years would I think I would be doing, or want to do. God has a sense of humor, I'm sure. He allows me to have this great job, where I feel productive, like I have a purpose. Great hours, a little under 4 hours each day. I am done by lunchtime. The only kicker is, I am wrestling with Algebra. Something I've never really had a grasp on. So each evening is spent doing a cram session of the next days equations we have to tackle. My secret fear is that the kids will come in needing help with something entirely different than what I tried to cram in my brain the night before, & I will be totally stumped as to how to explain it. Ha ha, it's then I'll be revealed as a Math fraud.
It's a growing thing, there's a lesson or two here. One of the things so far for me has been just to remember to focus on the positive. There is a reason I have this job, at this place & time. I don't have to be perfect at it, & have it all figured out(that's a daily thing I need reminding of). I sometimes let myself get bogged down in all the negative, because I feel overwhelmed. There are so many good things about it though, so I want to focus on that.
The cool thing about my hours too, is that I have time for other things I love. I'm home when my kids get out of school, I'm able to squeeze in time to do my art, & all my other things without feeling too time crunched.
Below are some pictures of some recent art I've made. I've been back working with polymer clay lately, & haven't done much with paper clay lately. Soon I will.