A couple things I say I don't give a shit about(but really I do)....
What other people think of me, & how many friends I have. I think I'm a little more focused on the friend thing lately, because they feel like they are dwindling. Pretty soon I will be a lonely hermit, with only my pets to talk to. Slight exaggeration, yes, & I still have my husband around to talk his ear off.
I think it's been gradually changing, the friendship thing, & now I will look around & realize weeks have gone by since the last time I really hung out with someone that I connect with. It's partially me, partially them. Life is busy. I kind of miss the days of being able to sit & talk for a long while, or long walks without time limits.
I only really have a handful of people I do things with, & few that truly get me. One of them moved away awhile back. So as I said, my numbers are down. I was contemplating a friend recruitment day, brainstorming how one goes about making new friends. Ha ha. But I am picky, well maybe not picky exactly, I just know what I want, & what I don't want. I don't want to spend time too much time with people who talk & talk & talk & hardly listen. It's also no fun to spend time with someone who is kind of judgy or puts down the things that I like, or make me tick. See, so it can't be just any old person! I've tried the whole be open to everyone approach, but it's turned around to bite me. I still want to be open, but as much as I try to put myself out there, I'm a little wary of not quite clicking with someone, but they latch on to me anyway. Hmmm, this friendship thing is hard. No wonder I like animals better :)
So in my friendless hours(just kidding, I'm just being dramatic)....I get the chance to paint. I have been working on this girl lately & just finished her. A lot of times when I paint something & I'm done with it, I'm not crazy about it. I don't quite like the way it turned out. This girl, I like her.